People are drawn to Vairrun and his outgoing personality.  However, behind that outgoing surface, years as Chicago firefighter and EMT, the deep trauma and grief 37-year-old Vairrun sees on the job has caused him to shut off emotionally, even at home.  While he enjoys the attention he gets from women on his physique, he has been unable to open himself up to connect intimately on a deeper lever.  He wants to have a full, emotionally connected relationship with the goal of a wife and family some day and is hoping the retreat can help get him on the right path.